Monday, February 4, 2013

Fat Bitch

You know what I love?  I love when people assume that I pretend to love myself and have a positive self esteem- that I'm "fakin' it til I make it."  I love that people assume that my confidence is fake and that I am concealing my self hate by dressing up, wearing makeup and heels, and being sassy.  (When I say love I mean loathe.)

Well, let's put it all on the table.  The only thing that I am concealing is my disdain for these blasphemous opinions.  For those of you who think that I have no self control because I am fat I must disclose this; I have more self control than you will ever comprehend.  You see, I control my desire to make you swallow your teeth every time you ask me if I work out, if I intend to eat nachos for lunch, and if I would like to hear about the diet pills that you are peddling.

I am a fat bitch.  I am loud and I am proud and I am fat.  If you don't like it... suck it.

My friend Rachele describes a fat bitch as, "confident, out-spoken and proud of who she is. The word bitch has been used by feminists as a way to reclaim an insult used to demean our cause."  I immediately thought, "Hey, that's me!  I'm a fat bitch!"  I am confident, out-spoken and proud of who I am.  It took me a long time to get here and there is no way I am going to allow the opinion of anybody strip me of this beautiful confidence that I have gained (along with about twenty pounds)!

I will be joining Rachele and several other fat bitches in How To Be A Fat Bitch.  How To Be A Fat Bitch is a free ecourse that Rachele will be hosting weekly.  There will be discussions, vlogs, and assignments.  Rachele's goal in creating this ecourse is to help other lovely fatties find their inner bitch. 

I wrote a poem a few months ago that received mixed reviews.  I heard, "It's too sexual," "I LOVE it," "It sounds cocky," and "How can you really feel that way?"  I'm going to post it because it fits me.  I give no fucks.  However, this time I have a title for the poem.

Fat Bitch
Look at me-
I am sexy.
You wanna see?
It's in the mystery in my eyes and the power between my thighs.
Watch me work them hips and lick them lips.
Can't get enough, can ya?
Check out my stride- bathe in my pride.
It's everywhere
In the words from my mouth and the lovin down south.
Hmmm... gotcha thinkin don't I?
Wisdom, beauty, and sex
I got it all.
You wanna see?
Look at me-
I am sexy.
~SM

 


10 comments:

  1. I am so on board with reclaiming the word "fat" as and adjective, not an insult. It's not always easy, honestly. I still falter over it sometimes like I'm just learning to swear.

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  2. I love it...I really LOVE the poem as well. You're an amazing writer, I wish I had half the confidence you have!!! P.S. Us "fat bitches" rule lol

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  3. I'm so with you! Who cares what everyone else thinks. Fat Bitches unite!

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  4. Hola Sarah!
    Amazing post (as always). I feel the same way you do....more power to the fat bitches (geez I feel like I'm swearing). Gotta work on that. I always say BITCH stands for Being In Total Control of Herself!

    Thanks for linking-up, I always look forward to see what you'll link-up week to week.

    ~SimplyyMayra :)

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  5. Interested in reading the Fat Bitch updates and I loved the poem.

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  6. LOVE YOUR POEM! em brass your fatness!!

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  7. I so wish I could feel the way you do. :) My husband claims to love my body (and he's been married to a woman bigger than me and dated other big woman.) He definitely finds me sexually appealing, but I also use to be tiny and he loved me then too. I struggle with insecurity over my size a lot, but I also struggled with insecurity even when I was small. I love your blog because it helps me in so many ways.

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